I’ve nailed it down and it is not without a great deal of thought, emotion and inner turmoil. It’s funny how it has all worked out and how even in making a decision I still feel unsettled. Making the choice to take my children’s education into my own hands is a big responsibility with heavy weight. When my kids were toddlers I really wanted to homeschool but life circumstances prevented that and when they started going to school I REALLY enjoyed it. As a single mom (at the time) it was the break I needed and as a WAHM it made things easier for me. Pulling the High Plainsboy this year was a big deal out of necessity and by the time I made the decision it was something we were ready for. I think having theHigh Plainsbaby helped also because I was no longer on my own during school hours.
So far we’ve spent that time deschoolong and getting used to change. With an ADHD diagnosis and a better understanding of how the High Plainsboy works I’m getting more comfortable. With our big move to our WY homestead I decided to homeschool the High Plainsgirl for 2nd grade next year too. I may transition her back to public for 3rd grade but we will see how it all goes.
I am not a teacher and haven’t had a lot of confidence in myself in this role. I do, however, have a lot of anxiety and worry. What if I don’t do a good job? What if they fall behind? I don’t want to be a failure in this but it is all so overwhelming and lesson planning is something I’m finding to be so hard I can’t do it. My eyes have started glazing over.
I’m a 12 step program kind of person. The answer for me is an out of the box curriculum. I’ve decided to spend the money and use Calvert this next year. I have read a ton of reviews and some of the cons are things I’m looking for in a curriculum. I also figure short of creating it myself, nothing will be perfect and I’m not in a place where I can create it myself. I think using Calvert this first year will help acclimate me and give me confidence. I can always adjust in the future.
Calvert has been around for a really long time. It is a traditional curriculum which I like and in addition to the years worth of printed material, it has online resources. Calvert also has their Verticy program that I can use with the High Plainsboy since he has special considerations that his sister does not (ADHD and possibly dysgraphia). I have some supplemental programs that I plan to use as well and if I need a tutor I will hire one.
During the whole (3 month long) research process I felt like a homeschool failure for gravitating towards an out-of-the-box curriculum. I’m not creative enough. I’m not smart enough. I’m not an engaged enough homeschool mom. I then remembered that if I am not feeling competent and capable it will be hard to help my children feel that way. I also remembered that this is what we are doing, it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks and it doesn’t matter what anyone else does. We have to do us and this is our starting point that can be adjusted. If it doesn’t work for us then I know that. And I can make the adjustments accordingly.
So, today I’m taking the plunge and calling to buy 2nd grade and 3rd grade with Verticy. If all goes well I suppose I can use 3rd grade again for the High Plainsgirl and get more bang for my buck.
Wish us luck!!